Elemental-Wings

Why is it

That every time i try to start a conversation with you, it cant happen. either your too busy or you on see the messege or you jsut seem so uninterested. Right wehn i feel like you dont care and feel like giving up, you come back, call and or text me as if nothing happened….why is this. I don’t think you realize how seriously hurt i was and still am from everything thats happend with us. Why do u think i still answer? Why do u think ill stick itout tiill 4 in the morning helping talking to you about everything or even nothing….give up? Becuase I love you. Thats why. The 3 words i can say without bullshit behind it. Everything that happened to us tore me appart. I have no closure or legitimacy with you. My feelings comeFLOURISHING back as soon as you come back to me for help….I can’t even do what u do. I can’t move on like nothing happened so easily..Ive tried, but she doesnt even know i exist, and thinks anything between me and her is awkward…yet she leads me on 24/7. I can’t move on like you did…What was the relationship to you? A Joke? A Fling? A HOOKUP?? WHAT?? it drives me innsae. It makes me crazy to think of your lips on another guy or girl, while mine are preserved with lonliness. It kills me to hea your stories of this girl, that girl, that guy, this guy, he wants u she wants you, and what stories do u hear from me? NOTHING, because there is nothing left for me. i stick through the stories and help and everything even though it cuts deeper then a knife..why?..because i care and love you…YOu dont understand how long ive waited to be with you. What ive endured to just as much as hold you. What ive givin up just to have your sweet lips touch mine…It may have been just a chapter in the book for you…but for me, it was the whole DAMN story..